Self – Confidence
What is self – confidence?
a feeling of trust in one’s abilities, qualities, and judgement.
I have always been one who has suffered with little self-confidence, the fear of never being good enough. Growing up I was always different, always taller always bigger. I always struggled to find clothes I liked that fitted and made me feel good. So, I settled. I settled for baggy shirts and ill-fitting clothes.
I grew up never feeling good enough with the stresses of society always telling me that I am not skinny enough, pretty enough or smart enough. We are told every day that there is a certain way to look, to feel, to be.
We are told we have to be a certain way to be accepted by the world. We look up to figures who are supposedly the definition of beauty. We are told our lips are too thin, our eyelashes too short or our skin too pale. Nothing is ever good enough for society.
I was a victim of society for a long time. Always tormenting myself to be better, to be more. I still am, but I got to a stage in my life about 3 years ago when I didn’t want to always feel worthless.
I decided to love myself and to be proud of the person I am, with the help of impowering woman like Tess Holiday, Gabi Fresh, Jessica Torres, Chloe Kellerman, Sarah Tripp and Nabela Moor I decided it was time to be me.
I started to express myself through the way I dressed, the way I do my make-up and the way I wear my hair. I try to be unapologetically myself, no matter what anyone else says or thinks. This is difficult sometimes as society is at every corner telling you that your clothes are too tight or your hair the wrong colour.
But at every turn I tell myself that the colour of my hair is my choice and the tightness of my clothes is what I am comfortable in.
I will stand my ground and I will be whoever I want!
What does self- confidence mean to me?
It means being yourself in a world full of people telling you not to.
‘Your worth is not about the size of your waist’ you are the person you are meant to be. Embrace yourself and accept that this person, the one reading this has nothing to fear from the world. So be strong and stand tall because you are your own beautiful self.
Surround yourself with people who want you to be you and who only want to see you fly and not shoot you down.
We were not put on this earth to please anyone so we need to stop trying to prove ourselves to people who only want to bring us down and love our bodies, our souls, our minds.
Society tells us to wear makeup to please those around us. That the only reason we spend the time and money we do it to be ‘pretty’ for the people who look at us.
I believe that makeup is a form of self-expression and self-love. Painting your face every day as a way of showing the world who you are.
This was a hard post to write as all the struggles I have faced have been put in front of me by people who have tried to keep me from being the person I am.
I hope you liked this post,
Meraki x x